A letter to my son on his 4th birthday

My love, I can’t believe today you turn four! Sometimes it seems like we have lived two lifetimes in just these four years. So many lessons learned, so many fights fought, so many tears shed, and twice as many laughs had.

There is no doubt becoming a parent changes you. There is no question becoming the parent of a child with s a disability changes everything. I am not the person I used to be before you came into our lives. And although at times I’m still trying to figure out who that is, I know I am a much better person because of you. You are amazing, and you are perfect, and we would choose you a million times over again my son!

Thank you for so much joy, and so much love and for all of these life lessons:

I’ve learned that mother’s intuition is the real deal. Always listen to it.

I’ve learned that not all children learn the same way. Some need to be taught to sit, to attend, to play, even to communicate.

I’ve learned that some kids are on their own timeline. And that some milestones never come for some.

I’ve learned that even if you need all the help, that help is not always freely given.

I’ve learned that sometimes you have to fight for everything. Fight for appointments, for services, for insurance coverage, for school placements, even for your given right to be in this world with everyone else.

I’ve learned that the world is not as kind as it should be to those who need it most.

I’ve learned that we are strong beyond what we believe, and that we can overcome even the things we fear the most.

I’ve learned that there is reason to celebrate each day in the smallest of things.

I’ve learned that the mightiest fighters, are often the smallest ones.

I’ve learned the true meaning of acceptance, patience, empathy and compassion.

I’ve learned that no one, no one, can set limits on you or your achievements.

I’ve learned that love can truly conquer all.

And that love needs no words.

Today I honor you and our beautiful journey together, my angel. Happy birthday! Love you to the moon!